The Impact - Final Chapter ("You Won't")

Disclaimer: I don't own any of Inuyasha character in this story, Inuyasha belongs to Rumiko Takahashi.

Shit i hate it so much, feel like a stranger in my own home. It was all because of her. hasn't satisfied her? let alone that she up to now? whatever it is, that will be a damn one. I hate to have a thought like that, but i dont know. Maybe...

"Hey Kagome" a very familiar voice sounded.  She turned, looking for the source of the voice. Inuyasha was wearing blue jeans, gray t - shirt and a red jacket . He tied his hair with a lower bond, his head covered by a baseball cap he gave her tiny awkward smile.

"Hai Inuyasha" Kagome repied half-heartedly.

Inuyasha sat beside Kagome eyes probing "What are you doing here all alone?" his husky voice that she missed.

"I just take fresh air" she smiling to him, a moment of awkward silence.

"Kagome, i'm sorry" he said without looking at Kagome.

"What for?" still with her flat tone.

"well, you know. Our last meeting" his voice almost a whisper.

"It’s not your fault Inuyasha" Inuyasha looked at her "it was all a misunderstanding, so dont feel bad about it" no doubt whatsoever that radiates from her voice, her anger began to subside. She felt very tired no power even to be angry.

"I didn't know that you..." he could not finish the sentence.

"You didn't know what?" she teased him "you didn't know that i used to love you?" she giggle again "that's not a big deal now, but i will always love you as my best friend" her words sounding in her ears acid "Moreover the incident occurred is not without reason, there must be something prepared for me" she is like convince herself, her arms were clinging to the side edge of the seat.

"How is your relationship with  Kikyo?" he asked again.

"I haven't really talked to her, these three days. Well you know, it's kinda awkward. We were just talking as necessary and until a few moments ago i was ..." this time Kagome stared at both ends of her shoes.

"I just blown up, when i heard that she is calling Sesshoumaru i yelled at her" sad and angry mix in her voice.

"What? The ice prick?" Inuyasha yelled, he tilt his head to look at Kagome closely "if she's with that bastard now?" his voice a little bit insulting.

"NO!" she yelled, she was surprised by her own reaction. "what i mean is i do not know, yet" her voice lowered.

"Wait he's not a bastard!" her brows furrowed, she didn't like to hear Inuyasha insult him. "Beneath his tough exterior actually he is so kind, mature, and caring" Inuyasha was shocked to hear the words that come out of Kagome's mouth.

"I mean, he is a good guy like you, neither both of you could show your attentive as other people did though ."

"What? you like him don't you?" one corner of his mouth raised up, "Don't fucking tell me you two fighting again and this time because that ice prince?" he raised his eyebrows in disbelief of what has just been Kagome said.

"Were you and Kikyo broke up?" confusion clearly implied from Kagome's voice.

He sighed before answering hesitantly "yeah we broke up" his words made her mind drifted to the incident earlier, whether Sesshoumaru and Kikyo are close? she thought.

"Will you congratulate me" his voice Irritated.

They both sighed at the same time and they both looked at each other and Kagome chuckled, Inuyasha put up again his old face the tough man.

"How come?" she curious.

 "Feh" Inuyasha knew what she meant.

"Have you explained to him Inuyasha?" she asked.

"Of course i had Kagome, do you think i am that fucking stupid?" one of his eyebrow raised, she was too lazy to argue with him so Kagome just silence.

"I had explained to her, but" he look away again "one month since the incident she told me to stay away from her, she wanted to be alone for a while".

"And you do still love her don't you?" the words were spilling out of Kagome's mouth, she looked at him but he still looking into distance, dreamy gaze. She felt sorry for Inuyasha, currently there is no more her feelings left for Inuyasha in addition to her feelings as a best friend.

"Stupid wench" he grumbled.

"What!?" Kagome cried threw him an angry glare.

"It's Kikyo, i still feel bad when considering the incident. Doesn't she believe me? I don't believe our relationship so shallow as it is, i didn't do anything wrong but she" his hands up in the air like giving up. 

"She's ruined it, i never thought that she's so stupid. She's so easily devoured by her anger, i can't believe she made our red thread so thin, all because she didn't trust me" his voice full of emotion. Inuyasha's words such a key that unlocks something in her mind, enlightening her thoughts. Something that has been neglected by her all this time.

Stupid wench? well, looks like i 'm the only one who stupid this time i was so jealous, and i didn't thinking at all. I shouldn't. Her heart became calmer, a smile etched on her face and then she said .

"I think she's not stupid inuyasha, she's just love you so much" Inuyasha tilt his head and see the sincere smile on Kagome's face, he refrained to  deny it. Yes she doesn't stupid at all, she's just love him so much. She blinded by love, her insecurity, just like me. Tragically we both fall into the same mistakes hole.

"Kagome.." he couldn’t continue his words.

Kagome stared at her best friend then smile "Thanks Inuyasha" she's grateful.

"Feh, what for wench?" confusion clearly implied from his face .

"To talk to me and opened my mind" she said but Inuyasha looked away.

"Let's go home, it will dark soon" he has risen from his seat, Kagome followed him.

At first she thought met Inuyasha would only make her more angry, but the opposite happened he enlightening her . There are changes in him, he is not a jerk like he was. They walked side by side in silence sinking in their own thoughts, until arriving at the foot of the stairs to her home. Kagome thanked him and then they parted.

The sun is already fully immersed, moon and stars became visible in the distance. when Kagome arrived on the threshold, no tv sound is heard. She said hello but no answer when entering the house, there's only vaguely sounds of a few people who speaks in the distance. The living room is the first place that she entered to find the members of her family, a comfortable place to spend time with them. How shocked she was when sliding the door, table center of the room has been filled by a variety of foods that are only available on special occasions only. In the middle of the table there is one large round cake decorated in cream white, red, and pink. Her favorite cake from her favorite cake shop, with her name on it and candles that have not been touched by the fire. Her grandfather, Sota, and her mother congratulated her with cheerfully.

It did not take long for the tears welling in her eyes, they remember it. She even forgot that today is her birthday, she remembers the last time was a week then. How quickly the day passed, she thought her birthday was a few days away

"Happy birthday Kagome" her mother said as she sat next to her.

"Happy birthday sis!" Kagome still hugging his mother as a vibrant Sota voice sounded in her ears, Kagome turned around and embraced Sota.

"Happy birthday young lady, i hope you could keep this for your own good" his grandfather gave him a shell that is believed a mermaid fin which includes Higurashi's family legacy handed down to bring success and luck to achieve anything she want in her life.

"Thank you mama, Sota, gramps .." Kagome wiped tears from the corner of her eyes.

"Hey where is Kikyo?" her mother asked her head turned to the right then left.

"She went to her room 10 minutes ago" her grandfather answered.

"She's the one who planning this surprise party for you Kagome" her mother stared at her, as if she'd understand all that has happened .

"I'll get her" Kagome got up from her seat .

"Sota! no more soda for you" her mother's voice slowly disappeared as she climbed up the stairs.

Inuyasha 's words made ​​her realize, their relationship foundered because her sister devoured by her anger, her insecurity, make their red thread so thin. She don't want to go further corrupted herself by her own thoughts, her insecurity. Kagome half ran up the stairs, she condemning herself in her thoughts. She felt bad for what she did to her sister, she standing in front of Kikyo's room door, doubts vanish immediately replaced by remorse and guilt that assaulted her. She knocked on the door gently.

"Sis" she called "i want to talk to you, if you dont mind" her voice sounded distant in her ears. The door opened, in front of her Kikyo standing upright with a straight face. Kagome stared awkwardly in the doorway.

"Come in" she ordered her, she wear blue jeans and white sweater sitting on the edge of her bed. Her hand patted the mattress next to her,  invited Kagome to sit at her side. This time Kagome obey her, she sitting beside her sister.

"I'm realy sorry sis, about what happened before " she sighed "i dont know, where i should start" the words haltingly, Kagome closed her eyes, shook her head quickly. "There are so much that i want to talk to you, but" her head lowered.

"I think i'm still upset over the incident" Kagome like talking to her hand on her lap "i'm angry because you didn't believe me, i'm angry because of what you said" her voice trembled.

"You know i love Inuyasha, but that's not a reason for me" Kagome looked at her sister deeply. 

"I didn't do anything, as you accuse. We're just saying goodbye he is my bestfriend after all" obvious disappointment emanating from her voice.

 "And you're my sister" her sister's head bowed, kagome paused. "You who had always protected me" she sighed "i had chosen university away from home it's because i don't want to be a barrier for you, i don't want you feel guilty or feel sorry for me. I don't wanna get in your way" Kagome gazing her sister's eyes, showing her sincerity. "and i would happy if both of you happy, i hope you'll forgive me" her voice trembled.

"Kagome, i'm the one who should apologize to you" amid furrowed brows "i am the one to blame, i'm not a good sister for you" her bangs covered her eyes.

"At first, i'm so jealous of you while we are still at school, because the first man who ensnare me more interested in you. Perhaps he did not show it to you at the time, but i know for sure for several reasons" she smiled at the confusion on Kagome's face.

"Kagome, i angry with him and i'm angry with you. I envy you, you're always be the summer and i always be the winter. Your attitude is always warm makes you easy to make friends with anyone, you're so easy to love does not like me" to hear her sister's confessions touched her heart. She did not expect what was perceived by her sister, until now.

"Therefore i accept Inuyasha as he expressed his feelings to me. Just because i know you love him, i want you to feel the same way i feel" she bowed embarrassed "i'm very sorry Kagome, i know i'm so evil" her voice choked. 

There is no anger anymore in Kagome's heart, only pity was left for her sister. Her sister that she had admired turned jealous of her, she did not think that was the reason behind it all. Behind her coldness she buried by her own unease.

Kagome chuckled "Sister, do you know who i have always admired? You, all of you" Kikyo raise her head, she looked at her sister.  "Your attitude, your maturity, i even admire your hair" she smiles.

"By the way, i love snow and i love winter. Only in the winter we could see angels on the ground, we always get cold because most of our days lying in snow making angel or another fun things. Everything's covered by white reflecting purity, and white snow reminds me of the man who also loved the winter. I know he will do anything to meet the winter again, because he loves her so much".

Kagome holding her sister's hand "I think we're attract in a different way sister" she looked at Kagome who smiled at her. "I want to be not only as your little sister but as your best friend" her voice cracked "All that drama happened simply because of a hormonal imbalance in our adolescence" little laugh slipped from Kagome's lips.

"I hope we can be more close as it once was, or even more. So there will be no misunderstanding repeated and there's no longer an inflated male ego because there are sister were fighting over them" this time they laugh together.

"This afternoon i met with Inuyasha in the park, he has changed. He opened my mind when he talked about you, why did you broke up with Inuyasha?" her face and voice reflects great curiosity "He loves you so much sis" the words popped out of her mouth "I just do not understand".

"First is because i did not love him, altough he showered me with much love. Like i told you earlier, i'm in that relationship is only because my own stupidity" heavily sigh come out from her "After that incident he apologized to me, he explain what happened even foolishly he was willing to promise not to be friends with you again if that is what i want " eyebrows almost united showed profound remorse.

"Two days later we went back as usual like nothing happened, he is much more attention to me. Not once did he make me sad after that, but that's when i realized he was too good. I just don't want to continue to hurt him by pretending to love him as he loves me. I feel so bad, shortly afterwards we're broke up, i can't hurt him anymore" Kikyo's eyes closed holding back her tears.

"And now you realize that love you him don't you?" although shortly she could see tears in the corner of her sister's eyes, Kikyo chuckled but the corners of her lips attracted little down. "I could see that you love each other so much, i wish there is a second change for both of you" She patted her sister's hand gently .

Kikyo embrace her tightly "Kagome i'm so sorry, i hope you could forgive me" she cried.

Kagome hush-ing her sister, "Don't say that sis" she embrace her sister.

"Thank you Kagome" she let go of her embrace, Kagome remove the traces of tears from her cheeks.

"Kagome , wait a minute . I forgot one thing " He took something from the dresser drawer. "It's yours" snow globe she held a farewell gift from Inuyasha.

Kagome smiled gently "Thank you so much sister" her eyes started watering.


"We'd better hurry sis, before Sota was wasting all the cake" her sister said in a playful tone.

At the same time her mother's voice sounded from below "Kagome Kikyo lets eat".

"Okay mama " Kikyo quickly answered .

"Let's go" Kagome had risen from her seat when her sister took her hand, she felt relieved no more misunderstandings between her and her sister that there was only a feeling of happiness to find her sister is back .

"Kagome do you know who reject me then?" she asked as the two of them down the stairs.

"Nope" Kagome shook her head, at the same time the doorbell ring .

"That's must be him" Kikyo eagerly pushed her into the living room where her family gathered, Kagome sat beside her mother, who smiled broadly as if she knows there is no more wall made of fire of jealousy between her two beloved daughter.

Kagome was happy to see her mother smiling happily, but nonetheless her mind drifted to her sister's words just now. Who is she invited? her sister's first love who rejected her because he prefers Kagome, let's hope he is not Hojo because it was the last thing she wanted on her birthday. This was her day to gathered with her family, celebrating her birthday and secretly celebrated the problem with her sister that has been solved.

"Today i'm very happy Kagome" her mother patted Kagome's arm who looked at her with a smile that was carved on her face. A moment later the mother's view was diverted to the door at the back of Kagome where guests show up, her mother invited guests to sit with them. Kagome 's mouth opened and closed several times with funny when she saw the guest is greeted by Kikyo is Sesshoumaru.

Sesshoumaru was wearing black trousers and a beige long sleeve sweater sitting across the table looked at Kagome who were surprised to see him, his eyes slightly amused saw Kagome's expression one corner of his mouth slightly lifted up just for a few seconds. Shortly Kikyo join them with Inuyasha who was beside him .

"Thats him" no sound coming out of his mouth only his lips move, but it was more than enough to make Kagome understand. What? does she meant that Sesshoumaru was her first love? and he liked me since the first? hell no, i couldn't believed it she thoughts.

"By the way, thank you so much for this surprise sis" she half whispered to her sister who is now seated on her right, Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru sat across from them.

"Do you like it?" kikyo asked.

"No, i don't like it but i love it" she winked.

"You meant you do not like him but you love ' him ' since the surprise was Sesshoumaru " mischievous smile plastered on her face make Kagome blush even more because she knows only Sota, her grandfather, and her mother, who did not hear their whispers.

After completion of dinner and conversation, they decided to a little stroll under the moonlight. Sota and her grandfather still watch tv in the living room, her mother in the kitchen to clean the dishes she didn't let Kagome and Kikyo help her. Currently Kikyo was with Inuyasha somewhere, before she disappeared she apologizes to Kagome because she had entered her room without permission to find out Sesshoumaru's phone numbers to invite him to come to her surprise party. She could have asked Inuyasha but her ego against it. Kagome hopes they can suppress their egos and let their heart the one speaking, because they both loved ones and they deserve to be happy.

Kagome and Sesshoumaru sat on the bench beside Goshinboku, smile can not be separated from her face. She just can't stop smiling, her beloved sister now back to her old self and here she is sat on a bench under the goshinboku in a beautiful night with him. Silver light of the full moon illuminate them, make his masculine face softened. His eyes staring far off into the sky, she wondered what he was thinking? She gaze at him, a  figure that is too perfect to be damn true.

They both sat adjacent although still plenty of room left, they staring at the distant stars. There's so many things that she wanted to talk to him, the concerns that had been lodged in her brain that tortured her in three days now had disappeared and paid by the happiness. Since the first Sesshoumaru already love her, it feels like a dream or is this just a dream she thought.

She could almost feel her heartbeat loud thumping her chest, he could certainly hear her pounding heart. Just thinking about it make her blush, whether he ever felt the same as she did? Her heart always skipped a beat as if to jump out of her chest when he stared at her.

"What makes you ashamed Kagome?" he asked with his deep baritone voice.

"Mm ... nothing" she bit her bottom lip, she turned her gaze. Without her knowing Sesshoumaru noticed from the corner of his eyes, his left hand hugging Kagome's arm. Kagome leaning her head on his left shoulder and rest her hand on Sesshoumaru's chest trying to feel the muscles beneath it, Kagome vaguely heard her sister's voice sounds like a gasp and material flashed very quickly, but she was too comfortable in her current position and she is too lazy to tilt her head to see where the voice was coming.

"It seems that's not only you who like surprise" slightly mocking tone, his eyes slightly diverted to somewhere behind Kagome for a while "they left" and then back again at the night sky.

Kagome knew what he meant is Kikyo and Inuyasha, they go somewhere .

"Yes because not every day you get a surprise isn't it? Do you know? My surprise was arrogant, overbearing, but at least he finally bit out of coldness" Kagome replied mockingly, but he is not affected.

"Sesshoumaru" she said hesitantly, her tone lower a bit.

"Speak Kagome" his usual tone.

"Kikyo told me about something, and i.." Kagome didn't dare to look at Sesshoumaru. "And i'm curious" still in her playful tone.

"As if you do not always curios about something kagome" his said coldly.

"Kikyo, she's so pretty and she used to love you" Kagome couldn't continue her words, Sesshoumaru cut him off.

"What are you trying to say Kagome?" His eyes began to harden.

"I just really want to know what's in your head, and what's in your heart. Because sometimes you're so hard for me to read even after i get to knew you more closely these past few months, and sometimes it's torturing me" pain is written on her face.

"Sometimes i feel you're so far away, but sometimes you make me feel special. Now i'm not interested in playing 'puzzle you' further, i'm so tired about everything because you don't know what it's like to be me who always thinking about someone who's arrogant these three days. Without any news from you after that almost kiss! You made me almost crazy with my own corrupted thoughts, do you know that this afternoon i had a fight with my sister? I threw up all that i've been trying to hold because i knew she was going to hurt when she heard it, and the triggered was just because i heard her talking on the phone with you. You're the one who rejecting a phone call from me, but received a call from my sister" she's a little out of breath.

"It was very painful for me, because i miss you" Kagome spoke as though without  pause, her chest was moving up and down. But her angry face just looks tempting in Sesshoumaru's eyes.

"I thought that you were right, about what we talked about when we first spoke. I never felt lost, more than this three days" her voice faltering.

Without any warning he kissed her who now petrified by the effects of the kiss, her eyes widened, but then her eyes closed. That was not what she had expected at all, after her burst out. But this is what she has been waiting for, her first kiss with someone that she love so much with him.

"The longest three days in my life" his warm breath gently brushing her face, his voice made ​​her shiver for good reason. His warm right hand now in Kagome's neck supported her. His thumb moved slowly, caressing Kagome's jaw. His gaze is not separated from her pink soft lips who have voluntarily separated, waiting for his.

She open her eyes, and amaze by what she saw. His face only a few inches from her face. She could see his eyes half lifted were glued to her lips, making her much more flushed.  His eyes was so...

"Kikyo called you to come here" her word is more like an affirmation than a question, she just wants to hear directly from Sesshoumaru .

"Hn.." is only his answer .

"And you came here" Kagome's gaze wasn't separated from Sesshoumaru's lips.

"This Sesshoumaru would come here today although no one asked, because i have an important business here. Important matters that i have spoken with my father" she likes his deep baritone voice a lot sounded very melodious in her ears, his warm breath gently stroked her face. Silently she inhaled it, she wanted to know how it feels like, what it taste like, his warm, his distinctive smell.

"If i reject?" she asked teasingly.

Sesshoumaru eyed her, there was something else in his eyes today. His amber eyes as if hypnotizing her, she became unable to move and unable to feel something else other than him. This time Kagome could almost feel his heartbeat that pounding hard in his chest like a tickle the palm of her hand, making that desire appears in her and she could see the same desire dancing in his eyes.

"You won't" his words as if drowning when his lips touched hers, it feels so soft, sweet, and warm. The subconscious that drives Kagome, without even a half second thought she immediately kissed him back. This is what she had dreamed , in her desire, in her dearer. All that she wanted, and what she needed the most.

Her lips pressed softly and gently feel the textures, his warm breath. She tilted her head, his right arm move around her neck prop her head. Kagome's left hand fell behind Sesshoumaru's head stroking, his hair feel smooth between her fingers. Sesshoumaru pulled her more tightly into his embrace, his left hand residing in the crook of her waist.

There are no more distance between them, he kiss her lovingly express their deep feelings. No more doubts about their own feeling respectively, there is no more barrier veil called self-esteem or insecurity. Also nature seemed to chime in with them, the wind chime with rustling leaves. Vaguely crickets singing softly in the distance, the beautiful silver moonlight illuminating the dark of night who mysteriously decorated by the flickering stars in the background of two people who making love. Sesshoumaru kiss Kagome softly on the lips before pulling away to look at her face but still embrace her tightly. Kagome 's eyes slowly opened, a little sad the kiss was over but she eagerly waiting another to come.

"Yes, I won't" she gave him her sweetest smile, yeah how could she refuse Sesshoumaru? she ventured to browse through his magenta stripes with her fingertips from the tip to the other end, things that she always wanted to do. Sesshoumaru eyes closed enjoying Kagome's touched, he pulled out a growl which made ​​some parts of her body responded in a way that she never felt before.

Suddenly her wrist captured by Sesshoumaru, his eyes hardened. Fear enveloped her, she was afraid of making a mistake that would turn him away from her. She did not want that to happen.

"Sorry" she said as she tried to pull away but Sesshoumaru stop her, their eyes met.

"Kagome" his voice like a whisper, his head moving slowly closer. Sesshoumaru's lips gently touched Kagome 's cheek, her lips touching right at the end of his magenta stripes. Sesshoumaru continued to move slowly, making her lips traced his marks as she always imagined. His lips soft and warm on her skin, his touch tickling her not only in places that have been touched by it, but also deep inside her, in her heart, and in several parts of her body.  He moving slowly, she was tormented by her impatience. Sesshoumaru stopped right at her earlobe, his breath tickling.

"Be my mate Kagome" he whispered, and she gasped.

Kagome nodded, her eyes watering. she tightened  his embrace as if her whole life depended on Sesshoumaru, wide smile plasterred on her beautifull face.This day is her day, what happens now above her dream. Collision with her sister was part of the journey of her life, that she had to go through. All the adversity it is part of the roller coaster of life that brought her to this moment, a moment when she flew over the ceiling of her dream.

Author's Note: Well, this is my first fanfic, at first i wrote it for challenge in Dokuga. I love reading Inuyasha fanfic, first i read fanfic at Deviant Art, Dokuga, and then Eternal Destiny. There's so much great story from the anime that i love, anime from my childhood that always successfully brought those beautiful memories back to me. And i really enjoy writting it, though i'm not confident with my grammar :D